"Is HE ready or is it I am NOT ready?

For those of you on twitter I always talk about my son. Well let me give you a quick low down on my son. He is 16 years old and I did not give birth to him. Three months after he was born my mom had to go back to work. Her going back left my sister and I to raise my little brother. He has always called my sister and I mom since he could speak and it never stopped. My sister and I have supported him through out his life in all the dreams he wanted and all of the goals he wanted to meet. He once saved my life and I think that is why I am SO OVER protective of him... Which leads me to the "Is HE ready or is it I am NOT ready?

He has a date tonight with his girlfriend of 2 weeks. He has had other girlfriends in the past (I didn't like them and scarred most of them off) But this one is different. He has his head in the clouds most of the time while he is at home TRYING to do homework but the second that phone of his says text message from the GIRLFRIEND everything else fades away. Now don't get me wrong I love my son and want nothing but the best for him and I just don't want to see him get caught up in a girl. He has maintained a 4.1gpa since he was in 6th grade. He has colleges looking at him and I want to see him have a great education and prosper in so many ways. I on the other hand was not the greatest in school didn't care for it and sure as hell didn't get good grades like him. Plus what mother doesn’t want the best for their children? What mother doesn’t want them to have better?

Tonight I have to take a step back and allow him to grow up and be a man. Truth be told I am scarred as hell that he might have sex and I told my sister to make sure he has condoms. Well the text I got back was "THE PULL OUT METHOD WORKS TOO" I was livid I could not believe what I was reading I was so pist I wrote her back some evil things and never got a reply back. So I let it slide because lets face it she is my sister and I love her and you can’t stay mad at each other forever! So This morning I pick up my son and I am taking him to school and I say to him "Baby, I know your going out on a date tonight here is some money for WHATEVER you may need!" He looked at me and laughed and said "Keep your money mom I have money but thank you." I didn't know what to say so before he got out of the car I said "Look I am going to pick up some condoms for you and that is final!" the next comment I did not expect to come out of his mouth. "THE PULL OUT METHOD WORKS TOO" OMG I was so pist off... Come to find out my sister had not been the one sending me those text's it was my own son. I said LOOK!!.. He stopped me before I could yell or get another word out and said "MOM I'M NOT STUPID AND IT'S NOT LIKE THAT! I PROMISE!"

The bell rang and he had to go into school. I drove to work thinking about what he had said. As a mom I worry cause we have all been in that situation when you’re in the moment and one doesn't think of “I didn't bring a rubber!” Girls these days lie about being on birth control and I just don't want to see him get caught up in that. But As I got closer to work, I realized that with all the crap he has seen my friends and my sisters friends go through I am sure that all 3 of his mom's have raised him better than that. I have to think that! I have to reassure myself that he knows better!

As his sister/mom we have a tight bond. He has never needed to lie to me and he knows that. We are open to all things. Alcohol, Drugs, Girls, Sex, Love, Life, Death, and most of all Unconditional Love! But has all that talking we have done worked? I guess only time will tell…